Feeling uncomfortable when taking meds

So currently I'm on medication called zyprexa. In the past I had taken this medication, and out of fear of the weight gain, I eventually dropped it, which was a bad idea in itself since I further accumulated relationships to suppress anger through excessive exercise and dieting, as well as other relationships. Within this, I see that there are other options of medication that I can try to prevent health risks like diabetes, but initially I require working with this medication, and utilizing my relationships that come up within what I feel with the medication, to prevent schizophrenic episodes that only create post traumatic stress, which can really fuck me over, so now I humble myself with the realization to never mess around with dropping medications, or with reveling against psychiatric support. Within this, I see and realize that from now on, I must remain medicated for a long term, until I have completely utilized myself in relationships, and reconstruct a plan to prepare myself when I choose to try winging off the medication, which within this I will require experimenting with eventually to see what happens with my mind after enough trials with doing this, but eventually winging off for good.

Scheduling my interactions, my physical basic relationships

Trial #1 -

Writing and reading in mornings, eat - 8:00 - 11:00

Exercise - 11:00 - 12:00

Recreation - 12:00 - 1:00

Cleaning,eat - 1:00 - 3:00

Tub relaxing time with music,write - 3:00- 4:00

Nap - 4:00 - 5:30

Guitar/eat - 6:00 - 8:00

Internet/research/write - 8:00 - 11:00

Steps - see therapist to help with communication, 

            Communicate with family, specifically mother about everyday experiences, what to work on

            Not feel obligated to schedule, and to slow down and resort to something physical that supports me when potentially becoming overwhelmed.